Sunshine Becomes You

"Although there is no other thing you can trust in this world, trust that I love you. All my heart."


This story happened in New York under the sky ...
About hope that emerged in the midst of despair ...
About the dream that last in the midst of doubt ...
And about the love that gives a reason to survive.

At first... Alex Hirano prefer to stay away from this dark angel girl who defected him. Then Mia smiles, and Alex wonders how could he thinks such girl with a smile as bright as the sun can be a dark angel.


At first... his dark, sharp, and cold eyes made her shiver and hope that the earth would swallowed her. Then Alex smiles, and Mia's poor heart jumps and thumps so hard till she afraid he could hear it.

That's the brief review on the book cover. Sunshine Becomes You tells about a love story between Alex and Mia. Alex is a popular pianist and Mia is a dance teacher. They meet by accident which led to his hand injured. When Mia offers her hand to help him, he refused her. But then... both become close. When the absent of one becomes  incompleteness of the other.Alex realize the love he felt for Mia. Mia also feel the same thing, but she tries to hide her feeling for him. When she faces the reality of her fragility, she wants him to know her true feeling. Sunshine Becomes You is a title of a piano composition from Alex only for Mia.

My favorite quotes from this novel are:
Alex said,  
"Someone once told me that he did not know why I could love someone like that. Frankly, I do not know. I guess I'm one of those who feel you do not need a reason to love someone. Because love just happens. You can not force yourself to love someone, just like you can not force yourself to hate someone you love..."



Mia said, "
"Although there is no other thing you can trust in this world, trust that I love you. All my heart."


A friend of mine bought me this book, actually I requested it... LOL... It called Sunshine Becomes You by Ilana Tan. Ilana Tan is one of my favorite author. She is good at stirring readers' heart at her happy or sad ending story. I like this book very much, not just because it has an ending that I love, but because this simple story makes me want to be a better person to love someone. I want to be like Alex! Someone who can love unconditionally, someone who doesn't need a reason to love, someone who stays no matter how bad someone could be...

Thank you, Nit2x, for the book....

Love is needing someone. Love is putting up with someone's bad qualities because they somehow complete you.... (Sarah Dessen)

The Power in You

Yesterday a friend of mine gave me this quote to strengthen me. I find this quote very interesting and fit to my current situation. I hope it can be an inspiration to my blog reader...

Lent Season

Entering the lent season with a broken heart it's not easy. Yet the feeling of sadness add more meaning to this lent season. I went to the church everyday since Ash Wednesday and last Friday I followed the station of the cross ceremony. This ceremony intended to remember Jesus' suffering during His crucifixion. There is a reading that I like very much:

"Jesus said...My people, what have I done to you? Have I hurt you? Answer Me. What I have or haven't done to you? I brought you out from Egypt, but you prepare the cross for Me. I split up the Red Ocean, but you stabbed Me. I raised you with big power, but you crucified me. My people, what have I done to you? Have I hurt you? Answer Me!"

And this song brings back my tears....

I am just a speck of dust in Your great presence, oh dear Lord
Thirsty for Your meaningful and merciful words of life
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I am unworthy to look up
Facing Your brightly light
I'm unworthy to come forward
To Your holy altar


I am on my knee Lord asking for forgiveness for my sins
With this mountain of guilt, I am looking up to You

A Different Point of View

These last few days my life has been up and down so quickly. Everything changes within a few hours. This hour I felt happy the next hour I felt so sad. It's funny how the wheel of life toast me up and down. I couldn't accept what happen but at the end I realized that it's just a phase of life I need to learn from.

Last week my boyfriend proposed me. I was happy. I saw his eyes when he propose and I really see love there, a love that I believe was sincere for me. Finally I found someone who accept me for who I am. My heart was overwhelmed, I couldn't stop thanking God for it.

But not long after the proposal, my boyfriend started to think that I was lying to him. I couldn't believe someone who loves me would accuse me with such thing. I really love him and have no intention in hurting someone I love in such way. I gave my best effort to fight for this relationship. He finally said his last good bye. I wasn't ready for it. I felt so unfair!!! I even beg for a second chance but never have it. How sad is that? When you fight with everything you have and you end up with nothing.

Yesterday I talked to a marriage consultant. Actually a friend of mine suggested me to meet this couple. He said they are good couple with honest opinion. They will give a different point of view. He did mention that I should be ready for harsh words because they only speak the truth. Here is what she said about my problem:

"I really question his sincerity in the first place... If he can be so immature handling this relationship, it's actually better that you don't marry him. Cause if you leave and join him in his country and he suddenly decides to walk out, you will be left all alone. It's hard to tell a person's real personality by just chatting through video and internet. If he is so emotionally insecure, it's better not to marry him. I know you love him but maybe take a step back and ask yourself if a man behaves like this, is he worth pursuing? You could end up even more hurt if you married him. I know it's hard to suddenly let go of someone you love... very painful. Be strong and move on..."

I finally calm down... no more tears. My heart is in pain, it's very hard to let you go but I have to move on. I know God wants me to experience this because He has a good reason. The good reason is to discover that I am loved by so many people. My parents support me with a big love, they don't blame, they are there for me. My best friends are here to show their true color by standing next to me... covering me from every side so I won't fall. I am so grateful for your love (Nit2x, BlueJasmine, Grace, Imelda, Siska). You are the best of the best. Thank You, Jesus. You are my Savior, my Hope... Thank You for this wonderful experience.You always there for me, Jesus, thank You.

I also wants to thank you to my ex. We have shared a wonderful life for almost 2 years. I'm so grateful for your love, I won't be able to find another love like yours. I never regret the love I felt for you. Like I said before:

Love you once, love you still. Always have, always will.

Thank you for teaching me how to love, showing me what the worlds mean...

Thank you for teaching me how to feel, showing me my emotions...

Thank you for teaching me how to live, putting things in perspective...

Thank you for teaching me how to give and how to take... 

Thank you for everything, Ruben

When I Look at You

when I look at You, I see my best friend, my boyfriend, my secret holder, my tear stopper, and my future

To Love You More

Honey, I dedicate this song for you...


To Love You More
by Celine Dion

Take me back in the arms I love
Need me like you did before
Touch me once again
And remember when
There was no one that you wanted more

Don't go you know you will break my heart
She won't love you like I will
I'm the one who'll stay
When she walks away
And you know I'll be standing here still

I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

See me as if you never knew
Hold me so you can't let go
Just believe in me
I will make you see
All the things that your heart needs to know

I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

And some way all the love that we had can be saved
Whatever it takes we'll find a way

I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

I LOVE YOU