February 25, 2010

Addicted to Cafe World

I have never addicted for something, yet lately I've been addicted to this online game from Facebook. It called Cafe World. The game is simple, I must choose a food from the recipe book, cook, and serve it to the customer. Since the game is online, it use a real time for cooking. When the recipe book state "French Onion Soup" need 4 hours to cook it, then it will take 4 hours to be serve. The food will be spoil if haven't served within 4 hours. So, need to remember and calculate when I can open the game.

So far I'm enjoying the game very much. This is my second online game. I used to play Travian, an online war and strategy game. I played for 3 months then got tired because I lost in every war. Got some help from my ally but still end up with loss. So, I gave it up. LOL...

The Cafe World is a cooking and strategy game. Like I said above, choose the food, cook, and serve it. We can hire an assistant to help us serve the food. The secret of Cafe World is to keep the high buzz rating by a clever layout of restaurant. The picture above is my Cafe, Chibi Cafe - named it after my dog. I have reach level 42 and still love to play it although sometime I found very difficult to open the game. LOL...
February 24, 2010

Learn to be Responsible

Everyone has their own responsibility for their act. Like it or not, we have to face the responsibility of our action. Sometimes people tend to run from their responsibility but I believe we can't run forever. It's an effect for our every moves, it's like cause and effect. I'm not judging everyone by their act toward their responsibility yet I'm encourage myself to hold my responsibility.

This week has been quite hard for me. I was force to face a sudden emergency situation. My maid got sick, a bad one. She has a big tumor in her womb. She was in a deep hurt and I had to bring her to the nearest hospital to get help. Before this, I have to face the fact that she has a miscarriage. I was shocked because she is a widow with no child who has been working for 6 years with us. She was pregnant for 3 months and I know nothing about it. The doctor suggested for removing the womb to avoid another tumor in the future. She accepted it, they removed the womb. She is 30 years old.

I learn about responsibility from this situation. I don't know whether she tried in her own way to have a  miscarriage or not. All I know, the guy run from his responsibility. She has to accept the hard fact that she no longer be able to have a child in the future. She has to face it alone. We try our best to stand by her side but I understand it won't replace her lost. She lost her money, her child, her womb... Well, she has to be responsible for her past act. It need a strong will to hold this kind of responsibility. I know it's hard, I hope she will be able to move on.
February 15, 2010

I'm Exhausted

I'm totally exhausted, physically and mentally. If you notice, several days ago I wrote in my MSN's status: "mental breakdown syndrome". Well, I don't know what to do anymore. I can not concentrate, easily angered, cry every night... I can not pray at all, speechless...

I'm excessively tired all the time, even after sleeping. According to psychology, I'm experiencing some of the symptoms of burnout. Long periods of overexertion and stress cause constant fatigue, headache, sleeplessness, gastrointestinal problems, and tension. Some other signals of burnout are crying, being easily angered, negativity, irritability, depression, cynicism, and bitterness toward others' blessings and even their good health. 

This morning on my "silent moment", I read about burnout syndrome. The book called "New Day New You" by Joyce Meyer opened my eyes about how bad my latest condition is. She asked me to remember, that the Bible says we reap what we sow. If we sow continual stress with no rest to offset it, we will reap the result in our bodies, emotions, and minds.

"And Jesus said to them, The Sabbath was made on an account and for the sake of man, not man for the Sabbath; so the Son of Man is Lord even of Sabbath." (Mark 2:27-28)

God established the law of resting on the Sabbath to prevent burnout in our lives. The law of Sabbath simply said we can work six days, but by the seventh, we need to rest and spend time worshiping God. Even God rested after six days of work. He, of course, never gets tired but gave us this example so we would follow the pattern.

What should I do? All I know is that I need to put my burden a while, I need a vacation... I need to refresh my body, mind and emotion... Please help me, God. I can not endure this any longer...
February 05, 2010


Need to be with myself
Want to retreat from the world
Refuse to see and hear

So tired to speak
Too painful to act
Very sad to hear

Just leave me alone for a while
Need to think a lot of things
Want to make everything clear...

I'm begging you,

Picture source: http://th02.deviantart.net/fs6/300W/i/2005/073/8/1/Leave_Me_Alone_by_Aigneis.jpg
February 04, 2010

YAZ Result

This is weird...

My period usually end at day 3, but not this month. At day 4 - 6, the flow getting heavier than ever. The first 3 days was a regular light flow, no significant pain... I didn't use any pain killers. Even when the flow start to be heavier, I didn't feel pain at all. "Wow!" I said to myself...

I don't know why the period become longer, hope next month will back to the regular flow. I take Yasmin again, get it @ near pharmacy store. It's cheaper than Yaz with higher level of ethinylestradiol. Each tablet of Yasmin contains 3mg drospirenone and 0.03mg ethinylestradiol. While YAZ only has 0.02mg of ethinylestradiol. Let me dig a bit deeper about these two contains of Yasmin and Yaz. 

What is drospirenone & ethinylestradiol?
Drospirenone - A synthetic spironolactone analogue and progestin with progestational and anti-mineralocorticoid activity. Drospirenone binds to the progesterone receptor, the resulting complex becomes activated and binds to specific sites on DNA. This results in a suppression of LH activity and an inhibition of ovulation as well as an alteration in the cervical mucus and endometrium. This leads to an increased difficulty of sperm entry into the uterus and implantation. This drug is used in oral contraceptives.

Ethinylestradiol - A semisynthetic estrogen. Ethinyl estradiol binds to the estrogen receptor complex and enters the nucleus, activating DNA transcription of genes involved in estrogenic cellular responses. This agent also inhibits 5-alpha reductase in epididymal tissue, which lowers testosterone levels and may delay progression of prostatic cancer. In addition to its antineoplastic effects, ethinyl estradiol protects against osteoporosis. In animal models, short-term therapy with this agent has been shown to provide long-term protection against breast cancer, mimicking the antitumor effects of pregnancy. (NCI04).

How do it work? 
Combination pills like Drospirenone and Ethinyl Estradiol, which contain two types of hormones (an estrogen and a progestin), work in two ways:
  • The body is "tricked" into thinking it is pregnant. This prevents the release of an egg, or ovulation. Without an egg to be fertilized, a woman cannot become pregnant. The estrogen part of the pill is what makes the body "think" it is pregnant so that it doesn't release eggs.
  • The cervical mucus is thickened, making it difficult for sperm to travel toward the egg and fertilize it in case an egg is released. The progestin part of the pill prevents the ovulation. Other alterations include cervical mucus which prevents the movement of sperm. This serves as a backup to prevent pregnancy even if an egg is released.

Many pro and contra about Yasmin, I just wish I choose the right medicine to reduce the pain with less side effect.