August 23, 2012

How To Let Go - Eat Pray Love

Recently I re-watched the movie of Eat Pray Love on HBO. When I watched this movie for the first time, I didn't learn as much as I learn now. Especially this part below which I quote from the book. It really opens my eyes on how to let go. It is not easy at all, it gonna takes time. I, myself, still in a process of letting go. After re-watched and re-read this for sometimes, I came to my sense that this person part in my life is over. He taught me many things and I wouldn't know I could love someone like that. Now, I let it go...

Here is the part of how to let go, I hope it can enlighten the burden of the process for everyone.

"What's got you all wadded up?" he drawls, toothpick in mouth, as usual.

"Don't ask" I say, but then I start talking and tell him every bit of it, concluding with, "And worst of all, I can't stop obsessing over David. I thought I was over him, but it's all coming up again."

He says, "Give it another six months, you'll feel better."

"I've already given it twelve months, Richard."

"Then give it six more. Just keep throwin' six months at it till it goes away. Stuff like this takes time."

I exhale hotly though my nose, bull-like.

"Groceries [he calls her Groceries, how AWESOME is that?!]," Richard says, "listen to me. Someday you're gonna look back on this moment of your life as such a sweet time of grieving. You'll see that you were in mourning and your heart was broken, but your life was changing and you were in the best possible place in the world for it – in a beautiful place of worship, surrounded by grace. Take this time, every minute of it. Let things work themselves out here in India."

"But I really loved him."

"Big deal. So you fell in love with someone. Don't you see what happened? This guy touched a place in your heart deeper than you thought you were capable of reaching. I mean you got zapped, kiddo. But that love you felt, that's just the beginning. You just got a taste of love. That's just limited little rinky-dink mortal love. Wait till you see how much more deeply you can love than that. Heck, Groceries – you have the capacity to someday love the whole world. It's your destiny. Don't laugh."

"I'm not laughing." I was actually crying. "And please don't laugh at me now, but I think the reason it's so hard for me to get over this guy is because I seriously believed David was my soul mate."

"He probably was. Your problem is you don't understand what that word means. People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that's holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then they leave. And thank God for it. Your problem is, you just can't let this one go. It's over, Groceries. David's purpose was to shake you up, drive you out of your marriage that you needed to leave, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light could get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you had to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master and beat it. That was his job, and he did great, but now it's over. Problem is, you can't accept that his relationship had a real short shelf life. You're like a dog at the dump, baby – you're just lickin' at the empty tin can, trying to get more nutrition out of it. And if you're not careful, that can's gonna get stuck on your snout forever and make your life miserable. So drop it."

"But I love him."

"So love him."

"But I miss him."

"So miss him. Send him some love and light every time you think about him, then drop it. You're just afraid to let go of the last bits of David because then you'll be really alone, and Liz Gilbert is scared to death of what will happen if she's really alone. But here's what you gotta understand, Groceries. If you clear out all that space in your mind that you're using right now to obsess about this guy, you'll have a vacuum there, an open spot – a doorway. And guess what the universe will do with the doorway? It will rush in – God will rush in – and fill you with more love than you ever dreamed. So stop using David to block that door. Let it go."

"But I wish me and David could —"

He cuts me off. "See, now that's your problem. You're wishin' too much, baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughtta be."














August 21, 2012

The Wedding by Emma Darcy

"It was time out of time

First, Tessa discovered her fiance in bed with another woman. Then she arrived at work to discover she'd been assigned to go on a three-day conference with the managing director.

It would be a miracle if she didn't melt into a heap at his feet. If ever there was a man made for female fantasies, Blaize Callagan was it!

And if ever there was a time Tessa needed to indulge in fantasy, this was the time."


Emma Darcy is one of my favorite author and recently I read her book called The Wedding.
This book teach me a few things.

  • When you want something, set your strategy and aim for it. When you face an obstacle in reaching your goal, there are two choices you can pick. First just hit it and you may got hurt. Or... You can circle around the obstacle and claim your victory. 
  • Hold your principles, never give up on it cause it determine who you are. If someone really love you, he / she will respect your principles and try to fit into it. 
  • Man loves challenges, so challenge them. If he really loves you, no matter how hard your challenge is, he will fulfill it. 

Nice book! Nice story! Nice lesson!
August 17, 2012

Finding The Rhythm



I'm finally living alone, really alone for the first time in my life. I wanted this since a long time ago, since I couldn't find peace at my old house with my parents. Now, I live at my own apartment, a small and comfortable place for me. The size is perfect for me. A place I call "home".

Finding the rhythm of life is a never ending process. Till now, I haven't find the perfect rhythm. My time management is not good, diving time between office hour and house work hour, also finding a time for "me" time still in a mess. A friend of mine said how difficult it is for him to do his house work in weekdays. Now I can understand the difficulty. Sometimes the work at office already tiring and it effect on the mood of doing house work. I understand now...

So far this is the time management I use: in the morning, I wake up early to prepare my breakfast, clean the bed and furniture. In the evening, I sweep and mop the floor, do the laundry (washing and ironing), and prepare my dinner.

Thanks to my mom for the frozen food she prepared for me when she comes to visit, I need no worry about my meals. Thanks to Blue Jasmine for her laundry business that help me with my laundry. Thanks to Nit2x who sometimes help me with house work. It is a pleasure to have all of you in my life.

Like I said before, finding the rhythm of life is a never ending process. I hope in the future I can find a better rhythm in life. I like my life now and really enjoy it.
August 07, 2012

My New Fragrance

I love fragrance especially sweet fragrance. My favorite smell is fruit fragrance, such as apple, strawberry, avocado and also vanilla. For perfume, I like to try many cause I haven't found a perfect one.

Till I found this one, called Pure Seduction by Victoria's Secret. Thanks to Pak Rama and Pak Iwan who gave this to me as a gift from Thailand. The fragrance is sweet and very light. The compositions as written at the bottle are red plum and freesia.

I really like it. I think I have found the one, hahaha. I can't stop smell it... It really seduce me, hahaha. Looking forward to buy the complete set of this Pure Seduction.

Once again, thank you Pak Rama and Pak Iwan.



August 04, 2012

I AM A FOOLISH



I am counting the tears I shed for you.
No matter how many lies you told,
I always choose to believe that you love me
And hope that a miracle could happen

I was stubborn to think that you love me
After all we've been through you left me
Can't you see? See the things I've done for you?
Or have you forgotten our countless trails of love?

I am a foolish for having fallen in love with someone who only knew how to love himself


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