New Gadget: Mini Speaker Nakamichi

I received an early Christmas gift this year. Quite shocking because the gift was from someone who never give a Christmas gift before. Actually not a surprise because I saw the gift first before he wraps it. When he handed my the gift, I already know what's inside. Here is my new gadget... a Nakamichi mini speaker.

Mine is a silver one. This gift is actually like a dream come true for me because I wanted to have MP3 player for such a long time. I really like this speaker, the voice is so clear, the bass is wonderful, great performance for mini speaker. This speaker can play from micro SD card. So I put my 512MB micro SD card which was belong to my Nokia. I am so pleased with this mini speaker, I always carry it around... even to the bathroom... LOL...

I recommend my reader to have it. Great value!

Thank you, AB!

No Period

The acupuncture treatment has ended and I still don't have the courage to go to the gynecologist. It has been 3 months since my last control while she told me to go back on September. Something unusual happened! I don't get my period last month, no pain in my tummy.

This is weird indeed. Hormonal therapy should last only for 30 days and my last Danazol was at the early week of September. But... I have 2 (two) times of period on mid-October. I was hoping to have it by the earliest or end of November. It's not happening.

I should go to the gynecologist, I should have the USG scan on my tummy. I used to be brave to face this disease. I always want to prove that acupuncture can heal it. But this time... I have no courage, I'm so afraid. What if this time the acupuncture didn't work?

"Jesus, I'm so afraid. I don't know how to handle this. I don't have the courage and I don't have the money. It's difficult, Jesus. But I'll praise You in this storm, Jesus... For You are my Savior, my Refuge. For You are my Strength, my Hope. May Your name be glorify now and forever." 

Picture is taken from:
http://www.periodvitamin.com/period-pains-but-no-period.html

Everything I Do, I Do It For You

Remember Bryan Adams' song called "Everything I do, I do it for you"? I was looking back at the prolog of Breaking Dawn because the movie is launch this November. I found an interesting paragraph that said as I quote:

"When you loved the one who was killing you, it left you no options. How could you run, how could you fight, when doing so would hurt that beloved one? 

 If your life was all you had to give your beloved, how could you not give it?"

This quote remind me so much of the lyric on Bryan Adams' song. It said...

"I would fight for you, I'd lie for you... 

Walk the fire for you, I'd die for you"

I just said to myself, what it would be like to have someone who would do such thing to you? I wonder how big is the love to have done such thing... I just know one thing, Jesus loves me that way. Thank you, Jesus.

Can we find such love in real life? I hope one day, I can find that love... I can find that someone and I could be that someone!

Find Someone...

"No need to find the perfect one for your life....

Find someone who is happy and proud to have you in his life 

Someone who will do anything just to be with you..."

Thank you, Abe Aden!

You have opened my eyes...

I Will Forget You

Just finished a serial movie called Heartstrings and I like this song very much.

I Will Forget You

I will forget you
Starting today I don't know you
I have never seen you
We have never even walked pass each other


I am okay
I will forget everything
I am happy with my busy life
I've met a great person too


Love is always like this
It fades away after some time
Can't even remember it


Chorus:
When love goes away, another love comes again
It definitely will. 
Even if it hurts now, it will heal a little later
It will forget. I will too.


It's not difficult. 
I will forget everything after today
I'm just getting used to my changed life


Love is always like this. 
It fades away after some time
Can't even remember it


(repeat chorus)


I will erase everything
I definitely will
When love goes away, another love comes again
It definitely will


Even if tears fall now, I will smile a little later
I will (now) forget you (now)
Just like a wound heals...
I will. I will. I will forget you.

When you hear the song (please find it online), you can tell how sad it is. This song reflects my feeling right now. I want to forget someone and move on, yet I am still afraid that I will hurt myself and those person. I don't know what to do, I really don't know... If I can turn back the time, I wish I never meet this person. I don't have the power to turn back the time, so I just cherish our encounter. My life is colorful with your present, thank you for that.


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http://oooindreooo.deviantart.com