An old friend called me last week; it’s been awhile since
our last conversation. She knows me pretty well; we often discuss many things
together. She asked me about my condition after several trials last year. Once I told her that the lost of my father was my biggest trial of 2012.
She said, “When you lost your ex, it was like your whole
world seems fall apart. When you have to take the surgery and remove your
ovary, you cried a lot because you felt that your hope to have a child is gone.
When you lost your dad, you cried till you can’t breathe.” Then she asked me
this, “Have you ever blame God for your trials?”
I never blame God for what had happened. It was hard to let
go of my ex because I love him so much. It was hard to let go of my ovary,
because I lost my hope to have my own child. I learn my lesson to let go. I
learn to let him go because I love him. I learn to let my hope fade away
because God want my ovary back. Everything I have is from God, and if God wants
it back, I shall not withhold.
Then she asked again, “Have you ever think that God wanted
you to experience the two events to get you ready for the next big event? I
know your biggest lost is the lost of your father.”
WOW! She really had me thinking…
Why I haven’t thought this way before? I always wonder why
God wants me to learn to let go 3x in a year. Did I fail to learn the lesson?
Now I got my answer through my friend. God prepared me very well to be able to
stand strong when I lost my father. I have to be strong for my mother who
almost kills herself to be with my dad in heaven. I have to be strong for my
brother, sister in law, and niece. Friends told me how strong I am to face my
trials. I said to them I am not that strong.
Lesson to learn:
To let go is very hard especially to let go the one you
love. Get closer to God in each trial, He will make you stronger, He will give
you the strength you need to face it. Thank You, Lord. Thank you, my friends,
for supporting me all the way, for opening my eyes to see a different side of
my trials.
“He gives strength to the weary and increase the power of
the weak.” (Isaiah 40:29)
Picture source:
www.quotes-lover.com
No comments:
Post a Comment