New Gadget

Well, actually it's not something new to me. I use blackberry since end of 2008. My boss asked me to use his old blackberry 8700 while he used the Curve 8320 model. I love using blackberry, the facility is great. It make me easier to reply all my emails and reduce my phone bill with its chatting application.

In 2009, my boss changed his device into blackberry new Curve 8900 or Javeline. So, I used his old 8320. I liked 8320 better than 8700. The big different is the camera, there is no camera in 8700 model. The price of this gadget is quite expensive. But for the applications its offering, I believe it's a reasonable price. I promise myself that one day, I must have my own blackberry.

Three days ago, I went to Cellular and IT Expo. There is a tempting offering of blackberry 8520 or Gemini and I decided to buy it. I chose the white color since I love white. Finally... I have my own blackberry... YAY!!!! Perfect evolution, if I may say. I use 3 types of navigation tool in the last 3 years, in 8700 is scroll tool, in 8320 is trackball, and in 8520 is trackpad. What a nice experience!

Encouragement Words

When I felt that my burdens are heavy, sometimes my friend or anyone can encourage me to stay calm and believe. Early this year, I found 2 encouragement words that really help me when I'm down. I hope it will encourage everyone who read my blog. These are the words:

"When God leads you to the edge of the cliff, trust Him fully and let go. Only 1 of 2 things will happen, either He'll catch you when you fall or He'll teach you how to fly!"

and

"God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way. If He brings you to it, He will bring you through it."

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Rafting

Water sport is fun. I think most of us love water sport, but not me. I hardly have water sport because the cramps I felt at my leg. I used to swim, enjoyed it! Learned to do it by myself when I was in elementary school. There was a public swimming pool near my house and almost every weekend we swam. The last time I swam was in the junior high school, I got 3x cramps... Luckily my dad was around to help me out of water. After that incident, I never do any water sport.

Well, this early January I had a big meeting with one of the sister company. We were at tea plantation for 2 days meeting and spent other day to do outbound and rafting. This was a big challenge to me, confused whether to do it or skip yet I decided to do it. I had to do it, I wanted to know how it feel. WOW! It was fun, a great adventure. I got my cramps (like always) and hit by my friend's oar (laughing). One of our boat was turn around, a friend got drift away and one of us helped him. YAY! We finished save and sound. Would like to try this extreme water sport again one day!!!

ONLINE FRIEND

FRIEND...

What do friend mean to me? Hmm, friend is the closest person I have (beside my family), some of them I consider as family. That's why I choose my friend very carefully. I try to give the best to my friend. If I may say, they mean the world to me. Could not live without one.

Recently I know that honesty is hard to find. Even when you give your best, share your secret and give your trust... It won't guarantee you from being deceived. Ah! I'm very stupid because so easily deceived by others. I'm wondering what they are thinking when they deceived me? Anyhow, I always find the flaws... So, thanks be to God.

This is my latest experience. I have a rule not to met people whom I met online. Well, I broke the rule once. First, because I was curious on how it will be. Second, because he was funny and I found comfort in him. This is a valuable experience. I learn not to trust any online friend.

The story began with his personal life where he stated that he is single, had a bad relationship for 7 years. His wife left him for her classmate while he was too busy looking for money. 7 years of marriage and no children. What a poor guy! Right?

Stayed close to him for a year. We hang out, had dinner, watched movie, talked over the phone or chatted via sms. I shared some of my secret with him. I trusted him. I thought I knew him, but I was wrong!

One day, I had a strong feeling to dig more about this guy. So, I explore more on one of his online profile. AHA! There you go... I found his picture with his wife and two children on a wedding dinner they attended 5 months ago. Shocked! I found the picture on his brother profile. I was confirmed by looking at his wedding ring (he wore a wedding ring @ the picture) and the similar look of his children, both look exactly like him. Jesus Christ!

Yes, I've been deceived!!! I asked my friend - who also knew him - to confirm about the picture. He confess that he was with his wife and his children, even mentioning their age. Wow!

This is the reason I said honesty is hard to find! Why would you lie to your friend? Why? I just don't understand. I trusted him! He wrote a quote @ his profile: "it takes years to build trust and only a second to destroy it". Well, my friend, you are right! You just destroy my trust, congratulation. Hope one day I can forgive you.

So, everyone... Never ever trust your online friend easily!!!!

OMG!

Why do I have to find out about it now?
Why didn't You stop it from the beginning?
Why You allow this to happened?


When I entered too deep
When I believed again
I don't understand...
I never understand Your way, Lord

Have to admit how blind I was...
How can I fall at the same place again?
I'm very stupid, never learn the lesson!!!!

Thank you for showing me the truth...
Just give me the strength I need now
I can not pass it without You, Jesus...

Third Month's Result

Hard to tell about the third month result of Yasmin. My period just ended last Saturday (01/02), it became short and light. The pain almost gone, although I still took some pain killer for the first and second day (not as much as I used to). Usually I took 12 pain killers for 3 - 4 days, but this time only took 5 pain killers (YAY!!! Happy mode). I don't like my period in term of short and light. I used to have a long and heavy period. By being short and light, seem to me as an incomplete process. Something is missing...


This time I also suffered a bad skin irritation. Actually I'm having this problem quite some times. First I thought it was something to do with my unbalance inner body temperature, I was wrong. In December it became worse, the skin around my mouth and nose was red, hot, and peel. I tried to put honey at it but didn't work out. I went to a beauty clinic that turn out to be a wrong move. The doctor at the clinic just said that my skin is sensitive and that I had skin irritation. So, she gave an anti-irritation ointment and soap for my face.

Oh... I never have thought that the medicine would made my skin worse. It became so red and hot (angry mode). My lesson is never go to a beauty clinic when you have a skin problem. So, two days after it I have a chance to see a dermatology doctor at nearest hospital. This time was a real doctor (grin). He gave me some pills to drink and another ointment, he assured me that my skin will be back normal and healthy. He said that I have an allergy... Allergy to what? I don't know (grin). My thought is allergic to the toothpaste since the doctor asked me to change my toothpaste into children toothpaste. I asked my pharmacist friend, all the medicine prescribed was for allergy and inflamed skin.

After taking the medicine from the dermatology doctor, gradually the red and hot disappear. Now my skin is back to the original, although the skin around my nose still having the problem. Suppose I went back to the doctor yesterday but failed to do it since I'm too lazy (grin). Hopefully will be able to go back to him next week, since I have to go out of town for the next three days. I just hope that the skin problem doesn't have a connection with the birth control pill I'm taking.



Back to my period and endometriosis, I'm taking a different birth control pill now. I couldn't find Yasmin at the pharmacy so I decided to buy YAZ. It's from the same producer and contents (with less amount of ethinylestradiol). Will report the result next month.

Fireworks

Do you like fireworks? I love it so much. Watching fireworks at last night new year's eve remind me how much I love it. The beautiful light on the dark sky, remind me that we are the light of the world.

No matter how dark is the sky, a single and small firework can shine and make the sky brighter. No matter how small the light is, it can conquer the dark. Just like a match, when we have no electricity... A single match can brighten the dark. This is the first character of a light.

The second character: to be able to shine, the firework burn itself to light the dark. A candle or a match, both of them burn itself to be able to shine. So, we need to sacrifice if we want to shine. This is it, the characteristic of a light. It's our characteristic too since we are the light of the world.

The fireworks also remind of happiness. As for me, the fireworks are the symbol of happiness. In every happy ceremony we will always find fireworks, such as birthday, new year, and wedding (sometime). Every time I saw fireworks, I felt amazed by its beauty and happy.

Oh, wish I can be a light that shine and bring happiness for everyone in their darkest path. Help me be a light...