Lesson: Even though We Weren't Close

Even though we weren't close

I always tried to visit you 

Even though we weren't close

I always remember you in my prayer

Even though we weren't close

Losing you cause a deep sadness

Even though we weren't close

I love you, I will always miss you

Rest in peace, Embah

Ambarawa, 26.10.2014

Love: Saying I Love You

Today is my father birthday. He already passed away for almost 2 years. In the memory of his birthday, I like to share one of the valuable lesson he taught me. Every morning, he sent a morning greeting:

GOOD MORNING, N
HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY
GOD BLESS YOU AND KEEP YOU
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

Even the morning before he passed away, he sent it. I know how much he loves me, and believe that he still loves me. One day on my dream, he came just to say " I love you, N". Oh, how I miss his voice so much. Since he passed away, I continue his legacy. I always send the morning greeting to mom, my brother, my in-law, my niece. It's not just a habit or merely a saying, but the meaning is deeper than that. 

I want everyone I love know that they are loved by me. I send the morning greeting with all my heart. So, if today shall be my last day on earth, I want them to remember how much I love them. 

I love you, R 
I love you, M 
I love you, D 
I love you, I 
I love you, Tata
I love you so much... always have, always will...

I love it when I receive a reply from them. They always made my day with it. 
Thank you, pa, for the valuable lesson. I will continue your legacy. 

Happy Birthday, papa.

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Love: Opening an Old Book

You asked me to open an old book

An old book that  I locked and stored in a chest 

An old book that I threw away....

An old book that I have forgotten because I am with you

I opened it and all the memories came back

The sweet and sad memories 

The moment when I was loved 

The moment when I was accused

But then...

You accused me of lying 

Just like the old book said

You opened my old wound 

You put salt in it with your accusations

You made the wound bigger and deeper now

Lord, I don't know how to handle this

I am scared, I am crushed...

Hold this hands, Lord

I need You

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