October 29, 2013

Poem: The Things I Would've Said


Yesterday I saw this poem at my favorite writer website. As I read it, I remember friends who want to end up their life without even considering the people who love them. I know life is hard, I know life is difficult, but as long as you have faith in God, everything is possible. 



Here is the poem called: 


THE THINGS I WOULD'VE SAID 
by I Wrote This For You


If you're strong enough to take that blade and draw it across your skin. 
If you're strong enough to take those pills and swallow them when no one's home.
If you're strong enough to tie that rope and hang it from the ceiling fan.
If you're strong enough to jump off that bridge, my friend.
You are strong enough, to live.


source:
www.iwrotethisforyou.me
www.choosehelp.com
October 24, 2013

Happy Birthday, Papa



I love you & I miss you, papa
Happy birthday....
Oct, 24
October 11, 2013

Health: Cholesterol

Last September I did blood test when there's a promo at the apartment. I'll try to do it once a year since I have a bad health history yet sometimes my financial condition become a barrier to do it regulary.

This year result was bad on the cholesterol level. My total cholesterol level is high (250 from the normal range of <200). The composition is also bad where the bad cholesterol (LDL) is high too compare to the good cholesterol (HDL). I am so panic due this condition. Since my father passed away because of a heart attack and high cholesterol make me vulnerable to the heart attack risk, I'm really in stress.

Since I can't afford to go to the specialist, I seek online how to lower the cholesterol level. Some said that garlic can lower the level. So I start to take garlic. I also change my breakfast with oats. My father's friend who I consider as my second father told me to drink a generic medicine called Simvastatin. I bought it and it is cheap. The pharmacist told me that 10mg is enough for my case. I took it once a day before bed. Let's see the result within a month. I really wish my cholesterol will be lower. I will wrote the result later.



A bit further of Simvastatin
Simvastatin is in a group of drugs called HMG CoA reductase inhibitors, or "statins." It reduces levels of "bad" cholesterol (low-density lipoprotein, or LDL) and triglycerides in the blood, while increasing levels of "good" cholesterol (high-density lipoprotein, or HDL).

Simvastatin is used to lower cholesterol and triglycerides (types of fat) in the blood. Simvastatin is also used to lower the risk of stroke, heart attack, and other heart complications in people with diabetes, coronary heart disease, or other risk factors. This medicine is used in adults and children who are at least 10 years old.

Source: 
http://www.drugs.com
http://www.bristol-labs.co.uk/lib/pictures/products/Simvastatin.jpg

Lesson: Trust... Again...

Dear God,

This lesson in life always knock at my door. When can I pass this lesson, God? Sometimes I am very tired, God. When I tried to explain and people won't hear me. When I tried to explain again and people won't believe me. I really don't know what to do, God.

Thank you for always given me Your strength in every trial of trust, God. You're the only one who can understand me completely, You're the only one who can see beyond what others see in me. Thank you for trusting me through out the years, God.

Grant me Your peace, so I can let go with whole-hearted, God.

Yesus Tuhanku, Kau paling mengerti
Rapuh hati ini, letih jiwa ini
Jamah ya Tuhanku.. jamah ya Tuhanku
Sebab Engkaulah Tuhan yang paling mengerti 
(Siska - Yang Paling Mengerti)

Jesus, My God, You understand me the most
My fragile heart, my weary soul
Touch me, o Lord, touch me
For You, God, who understands