Song: Pero Me Acuerdo De Ti

One morning in search of an old song, I suddenly remember a song by Christina Aguilera called "Pero Me Acuerdo De Ti". I love this song when I saw the video clip for the first time yet I never understand the meaning of the song. After I found the song, I searched for its lyric and got surprise by the meaning of the lyric. It reflects my feeling so damn well. 

Pero Me Acuerdo De Ti / But I Remember You

By Christina Aguilera

Ahora que ya mi vida se encuentra normal / now that my life is normal (stable)
Que tengo en casa quien suena con verme llegar / someone at home is dreaming about me
Ahora puedo decir que me encuentro de pie / now I can say that I find myself standing
Ahora que me va muy bien / now that i'm doing very well

Ahora que con el tiempo logre superar / now that with time I was able to overcome
Aquel amor que por poco me llega a matar / that love that almost managed to destroy me (kill me)
Ahora ya no hay mas dolor / now there is no more pain
Ahora el fin vuelvo a ser yo / now finally I can be myself again

Pero me acuerdo de ti / but I remember you
Y otra vez pierdo la calma / and again I lose my calm (peace)
Pero me acuerdo de ti / but I remember you
Y se me desgarra el alma / and my soul gets torn
Pero me acuerdo de ti / but I remember you
Y se borra mi sonrisa / and my smile is erased
Pero me acuerdo de ti / but I remember you
Y mi mundo se hace trizas / and my world becomes shattered

Ahora que me futuro comienza a brillar / now that my future is starting to shine
Ahora que me han devuelto la seguridad / now that my confidence has returned
Ahora ya no hay mas dolor / now there is no more pain
Ahora al fin vuelvo a ser yo / now finally i can be myself again

**repeat, see above**

Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y otra vez pierdo la calma
Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y se me desgarra el alma
Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y se borra mi sonrisa
Pero me acuerdo de ti
Y mi mundo se hace trizas

Journey: Schengen Visa

This November my boss and coworker have to go to Italy, this trip has been planned since August 2012. I am in charge of their itinerary and accommodation  I have prepare to handle this trip but I found many things in my way. So, this is my experience in getting Schengen Visa. 

First Stop. I booked the airline tickets. This is not easy cause my boss kept changing his itinerary. Finally when he made up his mind, I booked the tickets. The cheapest airline to Europe from here is Emirates, so Emirate it is.

Second Stop. I have to apply for Dubai Visa as they wanted to visit Dubai for several day. Dubai Visa is easy to apply. I found the form at DVPC website, filled it and prepared the necessary documents requested. For Dubai Visa, I don’t have to give the original passport. So, while applying for Dubai, I can apply for Italy. The requirements for Dubai Visa can be found at www.dubaivisa.net. Dubai Visa – DONE!

Third Stop. I booked the hotel. Why I book the hotel now, cause it is a requirement for the Italy / Schengen Visa. The only problem was, the Embassy is asking for the confirmation from the hotel. So, here is a trick, book the hotel thru a travel agent. The travel agent will issued the hotel voucher but not yet “issued”. Ask them to help you for the visa, they will understand. Some hotel, such as at Bologna & Modena, our supplier has provided. They helped us with the confirmation letter as well.

Fourth Stop. In applying Italian Visa, you have to make an appoint first. The requirements are easy to collect but not as easy as I thought. You can apply at 2 places: Italian Embassy or via VFS – Italy Center. At the Embassy the process take shorter time. Since I can’t make the appointment at the Embassy earlier, so I chose VFS.

The problem arouse as my boss have to go to Japan 3 weeks before Italy. So I can’t apply the schengen visa earlier as I expected. The other problem arouse as my coworker passport will expired in 3 months, so he has to renew it. Perfect! I applied the visa just 2 weeks before the departure date.

The appointment was made at VFS, the form & all requirements are complete. Another problem arouse… I am applying for tourism visa with company support. They rejected it. Company support can’t apply for tourism, it has to be business visa. Business visa require an invitation letter from Italy. Aiyo! My time was short and I have to get the invitation letter from our supplier. We force the VFS to accept our documents with a promise to send the invitation letter as soon as possible.

We contacted our supplier and got the invitation letter from 3 suppliers in 2 days time. The invitation letter must be supported by their business licence too. We forwarded it directly to the Embassy.

Departure date -1. VFS stated that the Embassy hasn't got the invitation yet. OMG! I rushed and checked my email and detected the attachment files are big. I guess that’s the reason why the Embassy can’t received it. So, I re-sized the document and sent it to the Embassy. They were supposed to leave at Nov 4. The agricultural exhibition was started at Nov 7

Departure date +1. The visa hasn't issued. I really didn't know what to do. Until my coworker called the Italian supplier and asked them to call the Embassy directly to ask about the Visa. Mr. Villani - one of our supplier called and the Embassy answered him with an email stating the visa can be picked up tomorrow.

Departure Date.. I called my coworker to picked up the passport & visa at VFS in the morning. Also asked her to buy the Euro Train Pass for both of them in the afternoon. I have to reschedule the tickets and hotels only in 8 hours. They finally left at Nov 7 – 00:15 am and reached Rome at 12:35 pm on the same date.

It felt like doing a miracle. The tension rise as my boss requested longer stay and I have to re-book the hotel. When the tension rise, I wrote status on my Facebook: “You want me to create a miracle? Am I God?” With His help, I can do the miracle. Thank you, Lord! In 8 hours, everything was set. It's a huge relief to be able to fly them to Rome. 

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PS: I Still Love You

One day I looked at my Facebook page and I saw a picture, a blue paper with a text, PS: I still love you. It really struck me. I really wish I can that words to someone I wish I can say it by looking at his eyes.... "I still love you"

Last Oct 27 was suppose to be my wedding day. That day I looked back on every memories I have of him. I looked at his pictures, our pictures, his videos, everything! When I looked back, I can feel how much he loved me. Those videos are the proof of his love. So, what happened to us? Where were those love? I really don't know what went wrong.

That night I received a news of my aunt. She passed away on Oct 27, after suffering brain cancer for so long. This news was a big hit to our family even though we have prepared for this moment, but we never prepared enough. The news still hit us badly. After her funeral I realized something!

God's plan is unknown. I asked myself... Is this His way of showing me that I should not marry on that day? Is this His way of showing that I love the wrong person all this time? I can feel He tried to wake me up and said "let him go, he isn't the one". For all this time I always pray that I love the right man in the right way but God and the universe show me the other way around.

If this is Your way, Lord, then help me to erase this love and let him go for good.

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Health: First Cycle

Norelut has done its job well, I didn't get my menstrual for the last 4 months. This drug made me a bit chubby, I gained 1 kilograms each month, my weight now is around 56 - 57 kilograms. More fat than before but a lot said I look much better, more life, not pale anymore. Good choice of drug, doctor!

This week I am having my first menstrual cycle after the surgery. Since Norelut last tablet, I am having a little bleeding for 3 days and then the real menstrual. I don't expect the menstrual to be painful as it used to be but I am wrong. The first day, I felt out of energy. Second day, the pain started to kick.  I took paracetamol again, 3 times a day. This morning the stomach hurt very much. It hits the gastric problem that I have. I can no longer stand paracetamol. This facts hurt cause I don't know another painkiller that safe for my stomach... 

I thought I have removed my pain by the surgery. I am wrong, it came back again. Maybe I should just remove the whole womb and stop the menstrual cycle / having early menopause? I really don't know... May the next cycle be lighter in pain...

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http://www.fhi360.org/en/RH/Pubs/Network/v17_1/nt1712.htm