Teaching

Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say (Exodus 4:12)

I haven’t taught in such a long time. A few weeks ago, my friends asked me to teach a university student. Hesitate but my heart told me to go for it. So, I finally took the job. Never imagine studying those books again. I mean, for 6 years I concentrate on my work and forget about the theory I learn at school. And suddenly, I have to refresh my memory.

My student is a girl. She’s a lovely girl, at her second year now. I believe that she tried her best to pass the final exam of Budgeting, Statistic, and Taxation. That’s why she wanted to take private lesson. She gave me her material for those subjects (note: I refuse to teach her statistic… I’m not good at this subject). Then I started to search and open my old book, tried to learn and dug my memory upon it. For budgeting, I have no problem at all. I am still using it at work; I just have to refresh the theory all over again.

The only problem came from taxation. Gee, I haven’t used this subject for such a long time but challenge myself to teach it. I asked some friends to teach me since so many changes in the tax regulation now days. With such limited time, I “finally” managed to learn and taught this subject.
I felt shocked and disappointed toward my student. She failed to come on time, so she missed the final exam. Can you imagine that? And she still can laugh about it. OMG! A friend told me not to get disappointed since I’ve done my part. But I just can’t do it. I’ve been a lecture assistant and my students were so excited each time we study. I wonder did she take the wrong major. Hmm, what do you think?

Well, I have admit this experience enrich me in many ways. Thank you, Lord for giving me the opportunity to teach again.

The Jealous, The Pain, and The Dark Side of Me

The Jealous
Last night I went out with my dad and my cousin to a mall. My dad bought a lot of stuffs which I categorized as “high class stuff”. This makes me realize how different I am to him. He lives in a high class society, while I am just an ordinary person.

Anyhow, I never learn my lesson in money with him (we always argue on money). Last night I want something so much. I really need this thing to replace the one I have which was broken. Unfortunately, the price is quite expensive. This month, my money is very tight. So, I can not afford it. I asked him to buy it for me but he refused. Got angry a bit, but my friend amused me by her joke so I decided to forget about it. Hell with it!!! I survive without it so far.

I SHOULDN’T ASK FOR IT. NEXT TIME… DON’T ASK!!! JUST COUNT YOUR BLESSING, HONEY!!! LEARN AND LEARN…

The Pain
This month the pain was unbearable because of my own mistake. I forget to drink the pain killer. It’s the tummy again and I got bored to face it each and every month. I tried everything… from vegetarian diet till acupuncture but the pain keeps coming back. Oh come on… aren’t you tired of me???

I don’t want to see the doctor again; I don’t want to do the same procedure and hear the statement of my health. I don’t know what I want to do with this pain. Maybe I should just get rid of my womb… and everything will be solved. O really??? I give up!

The Dark Side of Me

It’s like facing the wall when all the prayers unanswered. It starts to rock and question my faith. Lately I have face 3 big problem with money, parents, and pain. Keep asking why it happens, what I should learn from it, and how to get rid of it.

Suddenly I hear Him say, “Do you still believe in me? Am I too small for you?”

Faith looks across the storm; it does not doubt or stop to look at clouds and things without. Faith does not question why when all His ways are hard to understand, but trusts and prays. (Anon)

25 Random Things About Me

This notes was written on my Facebook page. I found it very interesting, so I copy and paste it. So here we go:

1. I was born in August. I was born early (only spend 8 months in my mom's womb) due an incident.

2. I have a very long name and here is the first letter of my entire name RSMIDNA... figure out yourself...

3. I'm the only daughter in my family, have 2 brothers and my youngest one died when he was 10 years old.

4. I spend my childhood in Palembang, South Sumatra.

5. I have been in the operation table twice... first because of fibroadenoma (breast lump) and second because of endometriosis (ovarian cyst)

6. I'm a Roman Catholic

7. I love to sing and join the youth choir at my church (AG Voice) and I'm an alto singer.

8. I love to read, especially novels. My first novel was A Woman of Substance by Barbara Taylor Bradford (consists of 8 books).

9. I hate cockroach so much, especially when they fly. Have you ever been urinated by a cockroach??? If you had, then you will know why I hate them.

10. I can't see people inside a coffin (it remind me so much of my late brother)

11. I can't stand spicy food, can't eat one... hahahaha... I hate chili so much

12. I can't cook and love salty food.

13. I love to sleep without any light on.

14. I love dogs and cats.

15. My favorite colors are white for pure, black for elegant, red for boldness, and orange for the sun.

16. I was a lecturer assistant for Cost Accounting for 4 semesters.

17. I can't drive a car, just motorcycle. I'm so dependent on others and I hate it so much.

18. I hate horror movie so much, so don't try to fool me... hehehe

19. I'm 100% Java yet can't spoke Javanese language at all hahahaha...

20. I was a Sunday School Teacher too... gee, how can I forget about that!

21. I love to drink juice especially tomato and carrot.

22. I never exercise hehehehe...

23. My favorite foods are fried tofu and soup.

24. I hate to be late and always try my very best to keep my promise.

25. My biggest dream is to travel to Lourdes and Venice.

Extraordinary

Have to admit how crazy I've been lately. I did a lot of extraordinary things according to my usual habit. Many things I never thought I would do... like this 2 extraordinary things I'm about to write. I don't know how it happened, it just happened... hahahaha. Never thought it will give me such happiness, but I really like the change in me.

The first extraordinary thing was meeting up my online friend. See, I do have many online friends but I never want to meet them in person. I always look for a friend who does not live in the same city even in the same country. I prefer to know someone who lives outside my country... so there won't be a chance for us to meet... hahaha. I tend to be more open and true to my online friend. I can tell them anything, like writing my living path in the email.

Well, like I said earlier... I hardly want to know an online friend from the same city, right? I knew this guy from one of my social website. We exchanged emails and he keep asking my local number and meeting proposal. I never gave my number, until one day, my stupid mistake on behalf of my favorite doctor (Thomas!!!! It's all your fault!!!) ... I suddenly gave it to him. Silly me!!! Then, we start to chat. Hardly to understand him at first since he's from different country (that's why I accepted him as a friend) although he lives in the same city as mine. The conversation continuous and I decided to meet him in person.

I like this new experience. I enjoyed the meeting and the friendship. But please, don't ask me to do it again with another person... This is my first and my last! I never thought of doing it, but I did it... and influence my best friend to do it too (forgive me, Blue Jasmine... glad that you enjoyed the meeting... and sorry I was late).

The second extraordinary thing I did was watching a horror movie in a movie theater. I never like horror movie. Scared? Coward? Hmm, yes I do... hahaha. The last horror movie I watched was "SHUTTER". I watched it in the middle of the day (around 11am) with my brother and couldn't sleep at all in the night afterward. Wait! I watched "THE RING" too, I shut my eyes and ear during the movie hahaha...

I promise a friend to accompany her to watch a horror movie. I always try my best to keep my promise, so I decide to watch "DRAG ME TO HELL" with her and my cousin. Have to face my own fear!!! According to me, the movie was not as horror as it may sound. I didn't close my eyes or scream during the movie. Sad ending is my favorite but I don't like the movie. Usually I seek a lesson from each movie I watched. From this movie, I learned to respect old people and try to create a healthy competition even in imperfect circumstance.

I like to conclude this writing with a quote by Julie Ackerman Link:
"Even when we don't know why something bad has happened , we know that God has the power to use it for good"