April 16, 2009

Friendship Poem

With this poem I would like to express my gratitude toward my best friends, where ever you are…

You are there in the time of loneliness
When I felt so low and sad
When I thought no one care for me
When I’m in trouble

You are there in the time of happiness
When I reach my dreams
When I fall in love
When I get what I want

You always stand by my side
You always believe me when no one does
You always know the best part of me and bring it out
You know me better than anyone else

You make me strong through my darkest moment
You make me believe that there’s a way out
You help me to reach my dreams
You help me to get up each time I fall

I’m not perfect, yet you accept me for me
I’m not beautiful and shinning, yet you see me in the darkness
We share our hopes and our dreams
We share our tears and our laughs

Thank you for your friendship
Thank you for your time
Thank you for being my friend
Thank you for everything

Here is my promise…
That I’ll never ever let you go
That I’ll never give up on you
That I’ll try my best to be there for you, where ever you are
For you are my angels without wings…
April 10, 2009

Celebration of Love

This morning in my silent moment suddenly I remember my friend, Kiki. She was an attractive girl, very active person. One day, she found out that her leg was swollen. She did a medical examination and the result was bad… very bad. She has a permanent kidney failure that made her went through hemodialysis. Her life depended on it. She tried an alternative medication too, but it wasn’t working. She struggled for 1.5 years with this disease. She died on January 2008.

I admire her; she has a strong will to live. She never gave up on anything. She smiled every time we visited her. I know how much it hurt, to go through from one hemodialysis to another especially for her. When the doctor couldn’t find her blood vessel, they searched and searched till they found it. The last blood vessel available for her hemodialysis was on her chest.

There was one man who stood by her every time, her husband. I saw his sincere and unconditional love. They were still dating when she found out about the disease. 3 months later he proposed her and they got married not long after it. He stood by her in every situation, he was a very patient man. Maybe he was her reason to stay alive, to be stronger, and to smile no matter how hurtful the medication was.

Today is a Good Friday, a celebration of love. Jesus Christ died on the cross for us, He sacrifice His life for us. There are no greater love than this, as He always said, “There is no greater love than to lay down one’s life for one’s friends” (John 15:13).

This day Christ shows His great love to the world as He died on the cross. May you follow Him in faith and share His love to the world…
April 07, 2009

Learn to Forgive

This week I have learned so many. My problem with the family makes me learn from many different sides. At first I completely blame my parents for what had happened. Now I look at what happened in a different side.

In my prayer, I always ask to be able to forgive. Jesus said I have to forgive 70 x 7 times. Forgiving is the hardest part in life. But I realized one thing in this Easter that God has forgiven me through His Son. I am only a human and imperfect yet I receive so much love from Him. So I have decided to forget about what happened and start to forgive my parents. I used to accuse them that they didn’t love me, for who I am; instead of asking it which I know they love me so much, I learn to love them as who they are. No matter what had happened, they are my parents.

This week I read an article titled “The Shadow of the other” (Intisari Magazine, April 2009). This article also becomes my consideration toward love and forgiving. Here is a short resume of the article:

One day an Axe, a Saw, a Hammer and a Fire made a journey together. In the middle of the dessert they stopped because the road was block with Steel. Supplied with their power, they tried to get rid of the Steel.

“Leave it to me! I’ll get rid of it,” said the Axe. The Axe started to hit it again and again. But the Steel is too hard and strong, finally the Axe became blunt and it gave up.

“OK then, let me handle it,” said the Saw. With its sharp teeth, the saw began to saw. What was the result? Still the same, all the saw’s teeth became fall off.

“What did I tell you?” said the Hammer. “You wouldn’t be able to do this. I’ll show you how.” What happened? It hammers once and its head flung away. The Steel remain the same.

Mean while, the Fire was quietly listen to his friends argument and decided to raise its voice, “May I try to help?" Without waiting for their consent it started to circle and softly hug the Steel. It hugged so tightly and never let it go. Finally the hardest of the Steel melted.

There are many stubborn hearts to fight with furious and high self esteem. But no heart can stand the warm love fire. As Carl Gustav Jung, the famous psychoanalyst from Swiss, used to say, “Where love rules, there is no will to power, and where power predominant, there love is lacking. The one is the shadow of the other.”